They're usually pretty harmless, so why not? Someone told me it might be worth points, too, so it's something I can do to help my team without erasing someone.
[ a slow nod. ]
What happened with them was a little different than me and Kyoko-san. We were on the other side, testing the game they were in. But I think we were characters, too...? I don't know how it worked, but if we weren't, then we couldn't have been deleted, too. [ a pause, and when he continues, his voice is softer. ] Now that my head's on straight, it reminds me a little of your memory, from last week. Getting deleted like that.
It sounds like you and Kyoko were casted as the players, then. Though... not exactly? Since you were deleted. [...] I'm sorry you had to go through that. I never wanted someone else to experience the same things I did.
...You don't have to apologize. It wasn't your fault. I just meant that I might understand a little better, what you went through. It's... part of why I haven't gone to the music store.
Part of why, because the world kind of reset after we were deleted? I have no idea how it works, but my whole life was different. It was like... everything I could have dreamed of. I was a pro musician, and even my family was supporting me, and I don't think they'd ever do that, no matter how good I get.
The thing is, I knew keeping things that way meant making some kind of sacrifice - I just didn't know what that was, at first. [ and he doesn't really want to relive it that much, so he simply says: ] It ended up being my best friend's life.
[she looks completely distraught for a second, here. the look of someone who can kind of guess how something like that came out of a special mission based on her world.]
... I understand. Why you wouldn't want to go to the music store, since now it's associated with... that.
You'll be able to play the guitar again. Maybe not today, and maybe not for a long while, but... It'll get easier with time, okay? This stupid competition shouldn't permanently ruin something that was so special to you.
Yeah, no, I - there's no way I can give it up forever. It's just... time, like you said. Figuring out a way to do it that doesn't make me think of... that.
[ he takes a deep breath. ]
Isshiki-san almost stopped singing for good once before. [ the man from the memory monika had seen before - the singer of the band that kazuki looks up to who hana had been willing to do anything for. ] But he managed to keep going, and his music started to reach even more people than before. I'll get there, too, eventually. Just... not right now.
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[ he does pause, though, thoughtful before seeming to decide on something. ]
Did any of the others with me last Thursday tell you about what happened to us?
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[kazuki is braver than any us marine. monika pauses at that, though.]
... Yes. [quietly.] Ylfa and Amelia shared a little bit about what happened.
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[ a slow nod. ]
What happened with them was a little different than me and Kyoko-san. We were on the other side, testing the game they were in. But I think we were characters, too...? I don't know how it worked, but if we weren't, then we couldn't have been deleted, too. [ a pause, and when he continues, his voice is softer. ] Now that my head's on straight, it reminds me a little of your memory, from last week. Getting deleted like that.
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[haha. bad!]
It sounds like you and Kyoko were casted as the players, then. Though... not exactly? Since you were deleted. [...] I'm sorry you had to go through that. I never wanted someone else to experience the same things I did.
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...You don't have to apologize. It wasn't your fault. I just meant that I might understand a little better, what you went through. It's... part of why I haven't gone to the music store.
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The thing is, I knew keeping things that way meant making some kind of sacrifice - I just didn't know what that was, at first. [ and he doesn't really want to relive it that much, so he simply says: ] It ended up being my best friend's life.
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[she looks completely distraught for a second, here. the look of someone who can kind of guess how something like that came out of a special mission based on her world.]
... I understand. Why you wouldn't want to go to the music store, since now it's associated with... that.
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You'll be able to play the guitar again. Maybe not today, and maybe not for a long while, but... It'll get easier with time, okay? This stupid competition shouldn't permanently ruin something that was so special to you.
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[ he takes a deep breath. ]
Isshiki-san almost stopped singing for good once before. [ the man from the memory monika had seen before - the singer of the band that kazuki looks up to who hana had been willing to do anything for. ] But he managed to keep going, and his music started to reach even more people than before. I'll get there, too, eventually. Just... not right now.
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Yeah, I know. Thanks, Monika.
...You deserve a chance to heal, too, though.
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We should do something nice to celebrate if everything goes well.
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We definitely should. Maybe another party, but with everyone this time. It felt a little weird having that without them.
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[smash cut to us bad ending the game]
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[ if he keeps telling himself that, it'll come true. ]