Part of why, because the world kind of reset after we were deleted? I have no idea how it works, but my whole life was different. It was like... everything I could have dreamed of. I was a pro musician, and even my family was supporting me, and I don't think they'd ever do that, no matter how good I get.
The thing is, I knew keeping things that way meant making some kind of sacrifice - I just didn't know what that was, at first. [ and he doesn't really want to relive it that much, so he simply says: ] It ended up being my best friend's life.
[she looks completely distraught for a second, here. the look of someone who can kind of guess how something like that came out of a special mission based on her world.]
... I understand. Why you wouldn't want to go to the music store, since now it's associated with... that.
You'll be able to play the guitar again. Maybe not today, and maybe not for a long while, but... It'll get easier with time, okay? This stupid competition shouldn't permanently ruin something that was so special to you.
Yeah, no, I - there's no way I can give it up forever. It's just... time, like you said. Figuring out a way to do it that doesn't make me think of... that.
[ he takes a deep breath. ]
Isshiki-san almost stopped singing for good once before. [ the man from the memory monika had seen before - the singer of the band that kazuki looks up to who hana had been willing to do anything for. ] But he managed to keep going, and his music started to reach even more people than before. I'll get there, too, eventually. Just... not right now.
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The thing is, I knew keeping things that way meant making some kind of sacrifice - I just didn't know what that was, at first. [ and he doesn't really want to relive it that much, so he simply says: ] It ended up being my best friend's life.
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[she looks completely distraught for a second, here. the look of someone who can kind of guess how something like that came out of a special mission based on her world.]
... I understand. Why you wouldn't want to go to the music store, since now it's associated with... that.
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You'll be able to play the guitar again. Maybe not today, and maybe not for a long while, but... It'll get easier with time, okay? This stupid competition shouldn't permanently ruin something that was so special to you.
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[ he takes a deep breath. ]
Isshiki-san almost stopped singing for good once before. [ the man from the memory monika had seen before - the singer of the band that kazuki looks up to who hana had been willing to do anything for. ] But he managed to keep going, and his music started to reach even more people than before. I'll get there, too, eventually. Just... not right now.
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Yeah, I know. Thanks, Monika.
...You deserve a chance to heal, too, though.
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We should do something nice to celebrate if everything goes well.
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We definitely should. Maybe another party, but with everyone this time. It felt a little weird having that without them.
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[smash cut to us bad ending the game]
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[ if he keeps telling himself that, it'll come true. ]