So here we are. [ he gets it. ] It's...hard to keep our spirits up or whatever, but somebody has to do it. You know? Especially if our other friends can still see us.
That part I'm less sure of. [ because i think this is before our letter-drops from monday so he doesn't know yet. ] Probably enough to have an idea of what's going on so they can try to help on that side of things. But what that means...I'm lost.
With how bizarre the contents are, we probably can't know the truth yet. Which. You know. That sucks when we have no idea what we should be doing besides...act normal. [ and wait for more people to die. ]
Nope. Usually Alex drags me out first thing Monday to explore but that only fills a few hours. It's figuring out what to do with the rest of the time that's harder.
There's only so much for us to do around here. Like, even with the movie theater and the library. Even playing around with the VR headsets gets a little boring after a while.
I haven't even gone back to the VR place since we first got it. [ hard to make VR work when your depression brain can't think of places to generate. and then, tentatively: ] It feels...almost like we're on a loop. Every week things restart. We have a new location, but the pattern is always the same. Monday we get a new district, we fill our time doing different things, Wednesday is a mission, Thursday is the curfew lockdown, Friday is investigation, Saturday is trial, Sunday is Erasure. And no matter how those things go over the course of the week, without fail, we start over again on Monday.
I've used it to decode the special mission messages, but— ah. That's not actually important.
[I wish you didn't know exactly how I feel.
her expression softens, sympathetic.]
... It's awful, isn't it? Even though terrible things keep happening to us, it's basically all part of a routine at this point. There's barely any time to grieve our loses before the cycle starts again. So... you get desensitized.
--why didn't we think of that? [ holy shit that's so smart. his face pretty much says "holy shit that's so smart", and while he doesn't mean to he does reply to her thoughts with and i wish you didn't have to feel that way either. ]
Haru and I talked about this, too. We never have time to really decompress and even really deal with losing all of these people so how do they expect us to be at our peak performance? It's just another way the game can take people out.
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Like we don't really have a choice sometimes.
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[I wish you didn't know exactly how I feel.
her expression softens, sympathetic.]
... It's awful, isn't it? Even though terrible things keep happening to us, it's basically all part of a routine at this point. There's barely any time to grieve our loses before the cycle starts again. So... you get desensitized.
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Haru and I talked about this, too. We never have time to really decompress and even really deal with losing all of these people so how do they expect us to be at our peak performance? It's just another way the game can take people out.