[she appreciates the firm grip. it's kind of grounding and it's feeling like the only thing keeping her from bursting into tears again. what a day.]
I'm sorry. I'm so, so sorry. It's not fair that those are our only two options. [letting tbd take one for the group or... team wipe. ugh.] To be honest, I... I don't know what else was found. I haven't asked. But if it's anything like what Livio and I saw at the warehouse...
It's...[ well it's not fine, it fucking sucks. but he doesn't need to say that out loud. ] We're going to have to decide what's more important. Balance, or doing what's right. And with so many victims that's gonna be a tough call. [ he frowns at that though. ]
You're already going to have to recount what you guys found tomorrow, so I won't ask. But it must've been pretty bad if it's got you shaken up like this. [ ... ] The streets were pretty trashed. A lot of impact and ice. We figure Wolfwood started there.
I wouldn't call any part of this "doing what's right." [she has never viewed this as justice.] But I want to figure out what happened to everyone. We owe the dead that much, at least.
[for closure, perhaps. both for the dead and the people left behind.]
... I see. But you didn't see him, right? Do you know if Wolfwood's body was found?
She'll be here until after the erasure Sunday. Aika told me that's what happens to the remaining player on a team that's erased. [ and he hates it? a lot. ]
I know we're all in a bad way right now, but...if you're up to it, you could text her. I'm worried people are going to leave her alone when she needs it most. [ kyoko's strong, but this is too much. ]
I'll try. I... wish there was something we could do for her. But if her fate is sealed, then the least I can do is offer her a shoulder to lean on until then.
It's unfair, right? Like...like this game is making her suffer losing her teammates already, but then insult to injury is having to go through their trial knowing that it won't be enough to save herself. It's shitty, and that's half the reason I'm so pissed at whoever did this.
[ at least...netzach and yuzuriha went together. it's awful that they're gone, but it was together. kyoko having to be so alone...it's hard to watch. ]
I think she'd appreciate it. It's a lot to process all at once.
It's horribly unfair. I literally can't even begin to imagine how it must feel to just... know you're going to die. And know there is absolutely nothing you can do to stop it. She's probably going to want to check Lou Wenzhou's body for herself, too...
It...it feels like the game's gotten worse since we've been here, right? Like even besides the trials, the missions have been taking some people back to back. Things are happening to people that we can't stop. The trials are getting harder to navigate. We're forced to be looking at the corpses of our friends and hope that maybe we'll find the answer.
Even without knowing you'd just disappear, I think anybody would have a hard time with handling all of this.
We've had seven weeks to grow close to each other. And in those seven weeks, more than half of us have died. It's not just that it feels like the game has gotten worse. It's just that it has.
And the worst part is that there's still one more week of this waiting for us.
...I'm hoping that this is the last of this part. The Reapers said it was at least seven weeks, and with so few of us now...I can't imagine they'd allow the game to keep going beyond this. But I don't know what's going to happen next. Other than we're still losing at least one more person before Monday.
... That's pretty frightening in its own way, though.
Next week is the end of the competition and there can only be one winner. So... What does that mean for the rest of us? I know what our end goal is. But no one knows what's going to happen on our way there.
I got a letter from Lambda. I think. It sounds like her, so I have to kind of assume it is. It was...just stuff we'd talked about, but the end of it mentioned how the game's almost done and that she hoped we knew the rankings by now. A few other letters I've seen this week have mentioned that things should be okay and we just have to keep holding on but...what that means, I have no idea. Especially when it feels impossible to do that.
Aika told me the points from the rest of us don't matter if they aren't high enough, but that it's good to have multiple high-ranking teams just in case. I don't want to think what we've been doing for this long is useless, but...you're right. We don't know exactly how to get to the end goal right now.
... Yeah. Lambda has been writing to me about the same stuff, too. I assume they have more information on their end that they can't outright say to us through their messages, but— It's still nerve-wracking, isn't it?
Especially since all the high-ranking teams are one misstep away from being erased themselves.
They have to. I've seen too many letters of them encouraging us to keep going and assuring us we'll see each other again and all that uplifting stuff to not think they know a little more about what's happening. I don't blame them for not being able to tell us. Especially if they're staying under the radar. But uh. Yeah. Nerve-wracking is a great word for it. I think the last couple of weeks have been eating at my nerves more than usual.
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What do you think about the rankings as they are right now anyway?
I'm not terribly surprised by them, if that's what you mean. We already knew the best way to get ahead of the competition was through erasing other players.
That's still what I meant, Jonas. I'm not surprised Justice and Froggystyle are ahead of the competition. I was surprised to see A-Peace is in third place, though I'm not actually sure by how much.
I was surprised about A-Peace, too, but not that surprised when you think about the fact we've had multiple weeks now with multiple bodies. We were never going to solve everything. I've asked the Reapers a few times if we're ever going to know points breakdown, but no dice so far.
...we won't really know until the end of the weekend anyway.
... I have my suspicions. But no way to confirm them. They had to have killed someone somewhere down the line, though, if even Nahida killing Valerie didn't give Go to Sleep an edge over them.
...I have thoughts about that, but it might not even matter. They're still not ahead, and considering Wolfwood is one of the victims I doubt they acted this week, too.
[ mostly because he doesn't think nahri's in a condition to kill, and vash wouldn't regardless. ]
[and then it turns out wolfwood did, in fact, try to tpk a team. but they don't know that yet, so--]
Maybe... But it's like you said. It's better to have several high ranking teams just in case. With Froggystyle and Justice down to two members already, we can't be sure that they'll make it to the end of the competition.
Yeah. We're...pretty middling, so I think we're out of the running for really making a difference. At best, all we can do is offer support to the high ranking teams we want to support and hope that's enough. Even if it means...doing some things we might normally not.
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I'm sorry. I'm so, so sorry. It's not fair that those are our only two options. [letting tbd take one for the group or... team wipe. ugh.] To be honest, I... I don't know what else was found. I haven't asked. But if it's anything like what Livio and I saw at the warehouse...
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It's...[ well it's not fine, it fucking sucks. but he doesn't need to say that out loud. ] We're going to have to decide what's more important. Balance, or doing what's right. And with so many victims that's gonna be a tough call. [ he frowns at that though. ]
You're already going to have to recount what you guys found tomorrow, so I won't ask. But it must've been pretty bad if it's got you shaken up like this. [ ... ] The streets were pretty trashed. A lot of impact and ice. We figure Wolfwood started there.
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[for closure, perhaps. both for the dead and the people left behind.]
... I see. But you didn't see him, right? Do you know if Wolfwood's body was found?
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I think I agree with that. We owe them that much, and with those four in particular...I'd really like to understand. [ ...he frowns. ]
We didn't see him, but I think Kyoko found him. It looked like the fighting led to Tocpe, so he probably was stopped there or something.
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god. she incredibly pained when he mentions kyoko. please save kyoko, holy shit.]
She did... Gosh, I can't even begin to imagine what she's going through right now. I really don't know if it's better or worse that she's still here.
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She'll be here until after the erasure Sunday. Aika told me that's what happens to the remaining player on a team that's erased. [ and he hates it? a lot. ]
I know we're all in a bad way right now, but...if you're up to it, you could text her. I'm worried people are going to leave her alone when she needs it most. [ kyoko's strong, but this is too much. ]
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[GOD. thanks! she hates it.]
I'll try. I... wish there was something we could do for her. But if her fate is sealed, then the least I can do is offer her a shoulder to lean on until then.
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[ at least...netzach and yuzuriha went together. it's awful that they're gone, but it was together. kyoko having to be so alone...it's hard to watch. ]
I think she'd appreciate it. It's a lot to process all at once.
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It's too cruel.
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Even without knowing you'd just disappear, I think anybody would have a hard time with handling all of this.
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We've had seven weeks to grow close to each other. And in those seven weeks, more than half of us have died. It's not just that it feels like the game has gotten worse. It's just that it has.
And the worst part is that there's still one more week of this waiting for us.
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Next week is the end of the competition and there can only be one winner. So... What does that mean for the rest of us? I know what our end goal is. But no one knows what's going to happen on our way there.
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I got a letter from Lambda. I think. It sounds like her, so I have to kind of assume it is. It was...just stuff we'd talked about, but the end of it mentioned how the game's almost done and that she hoped we knew the rankings by now. A few other letters I've seen this week have mentioned that things should be okay and we just have to keep holding on but...what that means, I have no idea. Especially when it feels impossible to do that.
Aika told me the points from the rest of us don't matter if they aren't high enough, but that it's good to have multiple high-ranking teams just in case. I don't want to think what we've been doing for this long is useless, but...you're right. We don't know exactly how to get to the end goal right now.
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Especially since all the high-ranking teams are one misstep away from being erased themselves.
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What do you think about the rankings as they are right now anyway?
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[she shakes her head.]
That's still what I meant, Jonas. I'm not surprised Justice and Froggystyle are ahead of the competition. I was surprised to see A-Peace is in third place, though I'm not actually sure by how much.
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...we won't really know until the end of the weekend anyway.
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[ mostly because he doesn't think nahri's in a condition to kill, and vash wouldn't regardless. ]
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Maybe... But it's like you said. It's better to have several high ranking teams just in case. With Froggystyle and Justice down to two members already, we can't be sure that they'll make it to the end of the competition.
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Yeah. We're...pretty middling, so I think we're out of the running for really making a difference. At best, all we can do is offer support to the high ranking teams we want to support and hope that's enough. Even if it means...doing some things we might normally not.
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