And even worse when things actually get a lot harder we're going to doubt even more and there'll be a lack of easy answer to fall back on. I think that's the part that freaks me out the most.
It's going to get harder, anyway, because we're just going to keep getting closer to each other every week. How many people told Libby they didn't think she was capable of hurting Buzen today?
Too many. [ and it makes sense. ] She did say he was a friend...generally, you don't murder your friends without some kind of wild reason. I didn't really ask her, since it's her business, but...doesn't mean I don't want to know and understand why it happened.
[haha. well. there's a sudden, sharp spike of anger. it recedes after a second, but it doesn't quite go away.
monika scoffs.]
... To be honest, it stopped being her business the moment it involved Buzen. And I'd say the same goes for anyone else who decides to erase another player.
[she is... so angry and offended, though none of it is directed at jonas.]
Apparently, Buzen's home situation is... complicated. So Libby decided that it was less "cruel" to erase him over someone who could, in her words, live a full life. But what she really meant is that she decided his life was worth less by her own standards, without caring about his opinion or the position she put Rang and Matsui in.
[ that's fine. it means she gets to feel his own anger, slowly rising and crashing like the waves on the shore before drowning out everything else for a few short moments. ]
...tell me you're joking. That's...how do you even decide that for someone else? You can't just pick a person with a future that's still in the making because you don't think it's full enough, what the fuck?
[ it's fine, now they can both be mad together about this. ]
[the vibes are that she would truly beat libby's ass for sword rights. swrights.]
It's so disgusting, I couldn't hold myself back and totally snapped at her... And she didn't even care about the position she put Rang and Matsui in. Libby really turned out to be something, huh?
[ the swights!! also. wowee that actually really does infuriate him, damn. ]
I mean, I don't blame you. I don't think I could talk to her in person without potentially doing the same and that wouldn't solve anything. I'm sure people will say that she was in a bad position or that she's not always like this or that it wasn't malicious intent, but...it kind of has to be sort of selfish to think you can just play god for people like that.
It'll make tomorrow's erasure a little different, I'm sure.
Aren't we all in a bad position, anyway? She should at least have the decency to be honest with herself, instead of acting like she made a morally superior choice.
[wow, jonas... don't jinx it... she sighs.]
By the way, have you heard anything about an anonymous phone call?
I heard from Rang that D received a call like that. And, apparently, so did Libby... Though the stuff she got threatened with was a little different. They told her she had to kill or they would go after her teammates.
Really? [ he thinks that over. ] If they're tailoring calls at all, it must be for whatever they think will work to get a person to cooperate. I was under the impression that D's was similar, but now I'm not sure.
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I think we had an answer a lot earlier than we wanted to admit. You know? Not that I know why it happened.
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It's easy to doubt yourself when things seem too easy, I guess. Not that it makes things any less difficult...
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monika scoffs.]
... To be honest, it stopped being her business the moment it involved Buzen. And I'd say the same goes for anyone else who decides to erase another player.
[she is... so angry and offended, though none of it is directed at jonas.]
Apparently, Buzen's home situation is... complicated. So Libby decided that it was less "cruel" to erase him over someone who could, in her words, live a full life. But what she really meant is that she decided his life was worth less by her own standards, without caring about his opinion or the position she put Rang and Matsui in.
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...tell me you're joking. That's...how do you even decide that for someone else? You can't just pick a person with a future that's still in the making because you don't think it's full enough, what the fuck?
[ it's fine, now they can both be mad together about this. ]
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[the vibes are that she would truly beat libby's ass for sword rights. swrights.]
It's so disgusting, I couldn't hold myself back and totally snapped at her... And she didn't even care about the position she put Rang and Matsui in. Libby really turned out to be something, huh?
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I mean, I don't blame you. I don't think I could talk to her in person without potentially doing the same and that wouldn't solve anything. I'm sure people will say that she was in a bad position or that she's not always like this or that it wasn't malicious intent, but...it kind of has to be sort of selfish to think you can just play god for people like that.
It'll make tomorrow's erasure a little different, I'm sure.
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[wow, jonas... don't jinx it... she sighs.]
By the way, have you heard anything about an anonymous phone call?
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[ but...hm. ]
You mean the one people get where they're told to kill or be killed? Yeah, I've heard a little about it.
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I heard from Rang that D received a call like that. And, apparently, so did Libby... Though the stuff she got threatened with was a little different. They told her she had to kill or they would go after her teammates.
[but libby still doesn't get rights.]
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